How i discovered the power of Yoga.
Four years ago I was not proud of the person who I was. I was selfish, not taking care of myself, completely lost in the fake days of our society. Being in a Ballet school had huge weight for perfection on my shoulders, which I was ready to achieve at any price, even the price of my own health and body. With this mindset, it did not take long before I ended up suffering from Anorexia, and far away from everyone and everything I loved. At this point it seemed to me that no one will ever love me again, because of how I treated people as a result of no being happy with my own self. I was closed in my room for hours at first, then it become days, weeks, months.. and even a year. I did not wanted to recover as I was thinking I don’t even deserve a recovery. Every day I woke up with pain, not only physical pain because of mt condition and low weight, but pain from what I have done to myself and to the people who love me. My family wanted to sent me to therapist, to doctors.. I was refusing it all.
During the time I was closed in a room with my own thought, and no one else had power on me anymore, I began to turn to myself and to see who I am and what i want to change. This painful and lonely part of my life was the biggest light I have ever received. Then i began to see – If I started to love myself and to treat myself better, then I will be the chance I want to see around me. I started reading and searching. At first I thought that I have to eat and train so I can be attractive and healthy again, but not long after I understood this was not what matters. To be completely changed you have to start from inside out. And there I was, in my first yoga class, filled with hope. I will never forget my first teacher and my first class, this was life changing for me. From this very fist time I already felt on my place, in this Yoga studio I finally felt accepted for who I am and I knew I will never stop this path. I started to attend more and more classes and to change gradually. With the change in my mind began the changes in my body, and Yoga was what healed me not only from the Anorexia condition, but it healed me from my selfishness, my ego, my self- destructive thoughts. It thought me that there are no perfect people, but we have to learn the imperfections. It thought me that you have to treat others the same way you would like to be treated. It thought me to grow even in the hard days, just like the Lotus grows despite the mud.
I will be forever thankful for finding Yoga. And my purpose in my life is to help others through it the same way it helped me. I want to show people their worth on this planet. I want to show them they are loved, but they have to love themselves first. I want to show them there is always hope.
Life is never easy! But it can be a little bit easier with Yoga 🙂